Good Enough? (A Poem by Amanda Best)

This poem was written at a time when I was going through a very rough patch in my life. I thought I had found someone who I could trust, who would understand, but I found out I was completely wrong about this person. I was left to wonder if I would ever be able to trust anyone ever again, especially after what this person had done to my faith in the human race. Because those are my feelings at the time, I decided to let my anger at this person out, and I came up with this poem. I felt it truly expresses what I am feeling at the time and I'm sure we have all felt this way at some point in our lives. For those who have never felt this way, you are extremely lucky, and I pray that you will never feel this way. Many of the lines from this poem came from different parts of many different emails that I had exchanged with this person. They are words that this person wrote to me. I took their hatred and the pain they caused me and channeled into something beautiful and intense. Anyways, this is the poem that I came up with.

Good Enough?
--Amanda Best
I trusted you with my life,
I trusted you with my past,
I trusted you with my heart,
I trusted you with my secrets,
I trusted you to be honest,
I trusted you to be trustworthy,
I trusted you to be truthful,
I trusted you to be understanding,
You've told me many things,
You've told me many truths,
You've told me many lies,
You told me you wouldn't hurt me,
You told me you wouldn't lie,
You told me you were honest,
You told me you were trustworthy,
You told me you were truthful,
You told me you were understanding,
You said so many things to me,
You promised me you wouldn't lie,
But unfortunately you did,
You're inability to trust me,
Speaks volumes of who you are,
But most of all it says to me,
“I can't trust you with my past,”
“I can't love you the way you are,”
“I can't help you be who you need to be,”
“I can't help you be who you want to be,”
“I can't be what you need me to be,”
“I can't be what you want me to be,”
“I won't trust you with my past,”
“I won't love you the way you are,”
“I won't help you be who you need to be,”
“I won't help you be who you want to be,”
“I won't be what you need me to be,”
“I won't be what you want me to be,”
“I don't trust you with my past,”
“I don't love you the way you are,”
“I don't need to help you be who you need to be,”
“I don't need to help you be who you want to be,”
“I don't need to be what you need me to be,”
“I don't need to be what you want me to be,”
“I don't want to help you be who you need to be,”
“I don't want to help you be who you want to be,”
“I don't want to be what you need me to be,”
“I don't want to be what you want me to be,”
“You don't deserve to live,”
“You don't deserve to die,”
“You don't deserve to be happy,”
“You don't deserve to be sad,”
“You don't deserve to be loved,”
“You don't deserve to be hated,”
“You don't deserve me,”
“You don't deserve anyone,”
“You're too skinny,”
“You're too fat,”
“You're too tall,”
“You're too short,”
“You're too smart,”
“You're too stupid,”
“You're too lazy,”
“You're too active,”
“You're too outgoing,”
“You're too shy,”
“You're too aggressive,”
“You're too passive,”
“You're too angry,”
“You're too depressed,”
“You're too happy,”
“You're too sad,”
“You're too cautious,”
“You're too reckless,”
“You're too wild,”
“You're too calm,”
“You’re not what I want,”
“You’re not what I crave,”
“You’re not what I deserve,”
“You’re not what I need,”
“You're not worthy of my time,”
“You're not worthy of my love,”
“You're not worth the ground you stand on,”
“You're not worth the air you breathe,”
“You're not worth the effort,”
“You're not worth a single thing,”
“You're not worth anything at all,”
“You're nothing,”
“You're nothing to me,”
“You're nothing to anyone,”
“You're no one,”
“You're no one important,”
“You're no one insignificant,”
“You will never be good enough for me,”
“You will never be good enough for anyone,”
“YOU WILL NEVER BE GOOD ENOUGH!”